another year fat??

Seriously? I can't believe it's been 11 months since I posted here. To make matters worse I've lost and gained the same weight! I'm the same as I was when I started! My glorified brag of 2 days in a row counting points has gotten me nowhere. However, each new day is a chance for a new beginning if necessary. So, a challenge has been made between my husband and I. A weight loss challenge. We have decided that whoever loses the most weight before taxes are done (we're going by body weight percentages to make it even) then the winner gets the toy of their choice (pending tax return amount). I will be finally getting a Cricut Expression if I win, I have the smaller size, but have been wanting the bigger size forever, and hubby will get a PS3. So wish me luck, and we're off!

WHoo Hoo!

Did it again! Stayed on task...stayed under in points...and I was not hungry all day! YES!

Oh my GOsh!!

I actually did it! I went a full day, every food, every point accounted for and I even had points to spare! Yay me! I love how I can just get on WW's website, and just plan my day ahead. The best part, is my life is so crazy right now that eating out happens way to often than it should but I took the time to research what some good, filling, getting the most out of points food choices would be from fast food places we frequent so I am prepared for when plans change!

I did it!

I finally did it. I got my act together. I talked about change for such a long time, but my mental health and life that surrounded me gave me excuse after excuse of why I wouldn't diet..not couldn't diet. I knew better. I've been eating crap because I"m not dieting, I'm making horrible food choices because I'm not dieting but yesterday I saw my friend Necia who I haven't seen in almost a year. She told me she lost 27 pounds on weight watchers and when I walked in to see her, I didn't even recognize her. She's a tiny gal and that much weight gone on her makes a huge difference. So last night, I made the committment. I joined weight watchers online. I just got back from the grocery store where I bought fruits that I like, vegetables that I like, and other low point choices. So, hopefully this will help not only me, but my hubby and my kids eat healthier too.

Rant

Ever just feel like life was in the way? Ever just want EVERYTHING to stop so you could just focus on one thing? That's me. All the time. I have a problem. I take on way more than I could ever handle. I can't say no, not even to myself. I want to be an inspiration to others, but I can't seem to get my butt in gear. I haven't posted here since the first post, because honestly, I'm stuck on week one. I know why I want to loose weight. I want to be healthy. I want to ride a bike. I want to dance with my children and not feel like I should be a circus side show. I want to not be a high risk for diabetes. I want to feel good so I don't have to depend on medication anymore just to handle life. But, life happens. I can't seem to find that motivation, that drive to want to make this stop. I can be the most selfish and unselfish person at the same time. I say yes to babysitting, when I want to say no, I have projects that I want to do. I say yes to helping in a church craft day, when I don't have the time. I'll say ok to go to Gramma's house because the kids want to go, but I want to say no, because I have at least 3 hours of homework to do and I don't want to be up til 4 again.

In my life, I've learned a lot about weight loss. Seeings how I've been overweight for over 20 years now, I should know better right? I know our weight serves a purpose. Mine was a protection for many years. But now, I don't know why it's here. Ugh..I guess I need to figure that out again. I thought wanting to have another baby would be enough motivation to get me on the right track, but I dunno.. I don't know anymore.

It's the beginning...week 1 change

Of a long journey for me. I am classified as morbidly obese and I am going to change that. I will be taking the next 4 weeks and focusing each week on a change I am going to make to not only loose weight, but to make my family and I healthier. After the four weeks I will be starting on an actual diet plan. I feel that starting a diet cold turkey is too much for me, depriving myself off too many things just doesn't work. I know there are others out there like me, so I have started this blog as an inspiration and as a support base for others who want to join me. I will also be keeping a journal during this journey so I can focus on fixing not only my physical eating habits, but to also be aware of what my emotional and mental reasons for eating are and changing them as well. So anyone wanting to join me I will have a weekly change challenge that I will be giving myself and anyone else who wants to join in as well. I will also post a "journaling prompt" several times a week to help those of you who are wanting to journal along with me. Personally, I want to have the journal so I have documentation of my progress, reminders of what works, what doesn't, why I ate what, and why I won't eat that anymore.


So Week 1 Change: Sweet Stuff. --Let's cut out the sugars, doughnuts, cookies, desserts, etc. One little change such as this can do wonders! Tip: Craving a sweet treat? While making this change don't forget to have fruit on hand! I like cutting up oranges and leaving them in the fridge so they are ready to grab when your ready to eat!

Week 1 journal prompt #1: What are the reasons for this change?